Sunday, June 29, 2008
Where DOES Time Go?
I was reading blogs today and noticed I did not post yesterday. Why didn't I? Where does my time go and what do I really do each and every day? I love to brag about being retired and loving my new life, but I really do wonder about my time. Life is passing me by very quickly and I just can't seem to slow it down. Yesterday it rained again. I was going to get up and go to the store, but why get out in the rain, I don't have to. So I stayed on the computer reading, and playing the games that I love. Snood, and Zuma. I can spend hours doing that and of course I have to take care of my Webkinz. I have gotten where I don't even read the newspaper anymore. I spend all my time it seems on the computer. Oh I still do the dishes, laundry, take care of the dogs, sit outside if the I want to, watch the birds, deer and squirrels, really I just waste my time.
But I love my life. Yesterday after the rain cleared away, after I took a nap, after I watched several cop shows, I decided I still needed to go to the store. I want to get things for the 4th of July. Plates, cups, napkins, a red/white/blue theme of course. There is a brand new Wal-mart about 15 miles and it is suppose to be "special". One of a kind store. So we decided we should go take a look at it. We had heard it had furniture and more things than the other stores. It is also a "green" store. No lights were on, it was all lighted by skylights, the a/c was not very cool, but they are very energy efficient. I liked the store except for a couple things. The floors were very slick and the store is HUGE. I don't like having to walk miles to get my few things on the list. Of course nothing is close to each other. But we had fun just walking and looking. It is not a special store, it does not have a furniture section that I saw, and all I can say about it is, it was big and it was new and it was clean. IT'S WAL-MART! My cousin went with me as well as my husband and we did not do anything really. But it was nice just getting out of the house together.
But then the phone rang. My son called. He tells me his air conditioner is not working and he fears he will have to replace the whole unit. Then he tells me he is probably not coming home for the 4th because he will need to work the overtime. I am just broken hearted. The 4th is my favorite holiday. The family get togethers, the weather, the fireworks, just so much fun being together. I understand things in life happen, but I am still disappointed, very much so. My daughter has already said she won't be coming home, and my step daughter said they were going to her in-laws. My brother and his wife can't come either. My cousin is having a little get together at her house with her kids and some of their friends. So I don't know who will be coming to my house on that day. I have the fireworks bought, the food bought and will start cooking tomorrow, but why do these things have to happen. That is why I moved back "home" was to spend time with the family. But why does the family not want to get together? I see so many other people and their families are so close. They know that when the holiday comes they will all be together. I just wish that my family was like that. What happened? How did we become so busy that family time is just not a priority any more? Family is so important and I value it so highly. Oh wait, that's it. "I" value it. My values are not to be imposed on others. But I do think that is sad. I wish, I want, I need, but it isn't all about ME. lesson learned.
Yesterday....I love the thought of going back to my Yesterdays. But then I would not be where I am today, and like I said....I love my life.