Saturday, August 2, 2008
Kids, Gotta Love Them
My Greatest Joy
Today has been a busy day. I got up this morning and of course went straight to my blog friends. I love to get up and see what everyone has to say and what has been going on in their lives. I spend a couple hours reading every one's blogs and playing on the computer. I don't even bother reading the newspaper any more. I learn everything I need to know in the world by reading my blogs.
Today I sent Scott to eat breakfast with my parents and then to the little farm and ranch store known as Atwoods. We get our feed there for the birds, dogs , squirrels, and horses. And I was out of feed. Plus he was helping my dad get a disk for the pasture or something like that. I don't really know (nor care!). Then he had to run over to the body shop (for the car not him!) to get an estimate on the car damage. Not as bad as I had feared thank goodness. About $1,500.00 worth, I can take it in Tues, get a rental car, and hopefully the car will be done by the weekend. That sounds pretty good me. One down and how many more issues to deal with today?
While Scott was gone I cleaned the carpet. I had dirty carpet and with three dogs (big ones at that!) I have to clean the carpet fairly often. They have big feet that love to track in dirt, mud and junk. And our carpet was beige! Was....So I spent the morning getting that done. I also got a phone call today. It seems my kiddo has a debt issue that I am going to have help take care of. Love my kids but good grief. Remind me again why we have kids???? Oh yes, in hopes of grandchildren someday....that's right. I think it should be against the law for anyone under the age of say 22, 23, oh I don't know 25-30 to be able to get a credit card!!!! I hate credit cards and credit card debts. I am very lucky that I do not have any, and if at all possible, won't. I pay off any charges I get at the end of each month. I sure wish my kids had the same financial savvy that I do. But I am pretty sure at the age of 24, 25 or so that I made some pretty bad decisions. Difference? I had no one to help bail me out. So am I really helping my kids when they make bad choices or am I enabling them? I wonder about my helping habits. Am I really helping? I wish as I was trying to deal with issues as a young adult I would have had help, and guidance, but I didn't. I feel, no, I know that my first marriage fell apart due to our lack of ability to manage money. That and a few (lots) of other reasons, but that is my other story of my life! So not having any help during my growth period, I felt I was doing my kids a favor helping them. Now I just don't know. It is a very hard decision. Trying to balance what is right, with ....I don't know, what am I trying to balance it with? I want them to be productive, well developed individuals. I have spent their whole lives building, molding, shaping them to that goal. Yes, we all make mistakes, myself included. So I try to lead them by example, and I try to help pick them up when they fall down, fall hard. I thought I would never have a good relationship with my step-daughter, I feared that for many years. We fought, and sometimes we fought hard. But I never gave up. I never gave up for I just wanted her to love me. I wanted us to be able to be a family that overcame the odds. And after many years it has happened. What would have happened if I gave up? Then we would not be where we are today. I have a good relationship with her today and the grandchildren she has blessed me with. And we are developing a relationship with a wonderful son-n-law. They have grown, they have opened their hearts and mind to us being back into their lives and we are all so blessed by it. So how much do you help your kids? How long do you go before you give up? I know as an officer what I have told people. But when it is your child I don't think you ever give up.Family is all we have. One life is all we are given. I just feel we have to make the best of it. The good and the bad, they all come together. I love my kids, I love them more than ......I don't know, it is easy to say "more than life itself". I think that is true. I love my children, my offspring, my part of me that I treasure so much. I would do anything for them, anything that I can. But.....how long, how far, and how much do we do? If you have the answer please share it with me. I have an open mind, and a wounded heart.